Leagues
do i love or do i not?
today is my last day here at the shop. i haven't told neri and leng yet because i want today to be normal. i don't want to attract some special treatment or whatever.
so it's goodbye again as always. for a month i've tasted the bittersweet flavor of business. school starts in four days, and i havent braced myself yet. im starting to believe that i've reached that "degree of knowingness" (from socio10) that would make it hard for me to further educate myself. im working at 18, what else could better that?? then im starting to think about the corporate worlds of Makati and New York, where bright minds clash to get themselves to business. they wouldn't be there if they're not educated enough. so goes my random mind, having to convince myself that i need, in spite of my lack of will, to go to school.
i wonder if i'd ever be the same - treating education like it's ambrosia. i wonder if id still have a special treatment to education and everything that comes with it: the university, the teachers, the atmosphere, the PEERS... i've started thinking that id fit better with an "older" society. i cant jive harmoniously with my peers. i think everyone knew that.
and i wouldn't even want to go back to school, having met reality personified by **** *** ****. i fell in love with work, with the atmosphere, and with my co-workers. and the life here in lipa is just one of those experiences that i consider most educational of all.
oh... * **** ** **** **** *****. why does it have to be always a bit tragic for me? i'll be leaving in four days. so soon to depart. haha, i didn't know sembreak flings happen in real life.
how will i perceive UP now? when i was fresh from high school, i thought UP was bustling with life. what would it be now? i dont feel like failing in my subjects because of thinking about this all but, is it really right to study when your heart is not in it?
i doubt that the people i've been with in UP would ever make me happy again. i feel like we're in different leagues now, and im on my own in the dismal world i've created within myself.
pero sige, sakay na lang. * **** **** * ***** **** ** ***** **** ***.
plato help me.
-doubt-
today is my last day here at the shop. i haven't told neri and leng yet because i want today to be normal. i don't want to attract some special treatment or whatever.
so it's goodbye again as always. for a month i've tasted the bittersweet flavor of business. school starts in four days, and i havent braced myself yet. im starting to believe that i've reached that "degree of knowingness" (from socio10) that would make it hard for me to further educate myself. im working at 18, what else could better that?? then im starting to think about the corporate worlds of Makati and New York, where bright minds clash to get themselves to business. they wouldn't be there if they're not educated enough. so goes my random mind, having to convince myself that i need, in spite of my lack of will, to go to school.
i wonder if i'd ever be the same - treating education like it's ambrosia. i wonder if id still have a special treatment to education and everything that comes with it: the university, the teachers, the atmosphere, the PEERS... i've started thinking that id fit better with an "older" society. i cant jive harmoniously with my peers. i think everyone knew that.
and i wouldn't even want to go back to school, having met reality personified by **** *** ****. i fell in love with work, with the atmosphere, and with my co-workers. and the life here in lipa is just one of those experiences that i consider most educational of all.
oh... * **** ** **** **** *****. why does it have to be always a bit tragic for me? i'll be leaving in four days. so soon to depart. haha, i didn't know sembreak flings happen in real life.
how will i perceive UP now? when i was fresh from high school, i thought UP was bustling with life. what would it be now? i dont feel like failing in my subjects because of thinking about this all but, is it really right to study when your heart is not in it?
i doubt that the people i've been with in UP would ever make me happy again. i feel like we're in different leagues now, and im on my own in the dismal world i've created within myself.
pero sige, sakay na lang. * **** **** * ***** **** ** ***** **** ***.
plato help me.
-doubt-
posted by Ken Tolentino at 5:27 PM
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